Yes I'm back. Again. Still on this stupid ride of lose weight, put it back on, lose it again. The neverending cycle of feeling like crap so I restrict myself, and then I binge and eat everything in the house. On the one day. Or I go shopping and buy lots of crap food. And then tell myself that I'm a shit person and I need to eat it to get rid of it so I can start afresh. So I eat all the junk food. In the one day.....you get the picture.
So now I'm nearly back to where I started from - when I first started this blog. Losing weight is hard enough, but keeping it off is even harder. Having a baby and then losing weight is hard. Having 5 kids and no real time management skills is hard. Having lots of children, a messy house, anxiety and depression is hard - not very conducive for weight loss anyway.
So I'm back again, but I'm not making any huge plans, I am going to take it day by day and see how I go - and I'm not fully restricting myself, I'm allowing myself things that I like. You know, like coffee. An ice cream after dinner. I think if I eat well for the majority of the day, a few little things won't hurt too much and might help keep me motivated to keep going like this, instead of restricting everything and then eating everything (and then some).
So today I had a smoothie for breakfast that kind of tasted like grass. And looked like the green sludgy stuff you find on the top of creeks. But it wasn't too bad, think I just put wayyyy too much spinach in.
Then I went for a 5km walk with the baby in the pram, which wasn't too bad - aside from some knee pain I think I did quite ok.
Got home, changed the beds around in two bedrooms and then had morning tea - boiled egg and some celery with cream cheese, and celery with peanut butter. Then lunch was chicken soup with some bok choy chucked on the bottom of the bowl to wilt before eating. That was pretty tasty.
Afternoon tea was some carrot sticks and hommus that I found in my fridge (from my shopping trip for the Lose Baby Weight challenge. I have things in my fridge from the time I was going to do LCHF as well. And probably some things from other challenges or "diets").
Dinner was a fish stir fry I threw together, without any recipe. It was quite nice and full of vegies, which was my plan - not that I have a plan hahaha
So I think today went quite well. It's not finished yet, but I didn't have any cravings for any junk food and that's a bonus!!!
Let's see how tomorrow goes.
