Yes I'm back. Again. Still on this stupid ride of lose weight, put it back on, lose it again. The neverending cycle of feeling like crap so I restrict myself, and then I binge and eat everything in the house. On the one day. Or I go shopping and buy lots of crap food. And then tell myself that I'm a shit person and I need to eat it to get rid of it so I can start afresh. So I eat all the junk food. In the one day.....you get the picture.
So now I'm nearly back to where I started from - when I first started this blog. Losing weight is hard enough, but keeping it off is even harder. Having a baby and then losing weight is hard. Having 5 kids and no real time management skills is hard. Having lots of children, a messy house, anxiety and depression is hard - not very conducive for weight loss anyway.
So I'm back again, but I'm not making any huge plans, I am going to take it day by day and see how I go - and I'm not fully restricting myself, I'm allowing myself things that I like. You know, like coffee. An ice cream after dinner. I think if I eat well for the majority of the day, a few little things won't hurt too much and might help keep me motivated to keep going like this, instead of restricting everything and then eating everything (and then some).
So today I had a smoothie for breakfast that kind of tasted like grass. And looked like the green sludgy stuff you find on the top of creeks. But it wasn't too bad, think I just put wayyyy too much spinach in.
Then I went for a 5km walk with the baby in the pram, which wasn't too bad - aside from some knee pain I think I did quite ok.
Got home, changed the beds around in two bedrooms and then had morning tea - boiled egg and some celery with cream cheese, and celery with peanut butter. Then lunch was chicken soup with some bok choy chucked on the bottom of the bowl to wilt before eating. That was pretty tasty.
Afternoon tea was some carrot sticks and hommus that I found in my fridge (from my shopping trip for the Lose Baby Weight challenge. I have things in my fridge from the time I was going to do LCHF as well. And probably some things from other challenges or "diets").
Dinner was a fish stir fry I threw together, without any recipe. It was quite nice and full of vegies, which was my plan - not that I have a plan hahaha
So I think today went quite well. It's not finished yet, but I didn't have any cravings for any junk food and that's a bonus!!!
Let's see how tomorrow goes.
Monday 17 August 2015
Friday 2 January 2015
New year - here we go again!!
So here it is - 2015. Still fat, still unfit, still unhappy.
It is really funny when I look back at pics from weight before and at the moment that seems so far away to get to, but when I was there I still wasn't happy with my weight. I wanted to be smaller. 71kg was still very overweight to me when I was there, however its at least 20kg lighter than what I am now.
I say at least because I don't actually know what I weigh. I know its above 90kg. It could be above 95kg. Our scales are broken (and no I didn't break them when I stood on them!)
So here we go, another year, another chance of getting to where I want to be and fighting my internal demons when it comes to food.
At the moment we are tossing around the idea to eat grain free and sugar free. But then I read something the other day about how weight loss is more successful if you add things to your life, instead of taking things away. So adding in more vegetables. Add in more water (something I really need to do). Add in more exercise - but instead of jumping in and exercising 6 times a week, aim to exercise for more days than you don't exercise.
I am still going to try and stay away from processed foods, just simply for the fact that they really aren't good for you, and I should look out for my kids and not feed them crap either.
So today I have had:
Breakfast - bowl of Jalna yoghurt and some grain free granola on the top and some dried cherries (which were really tart and I won't be having them tomorrow lol)
Morning tea - boiled egg and some peanut butter in celery. I love peanut butter, especially from the health food store where they add nothing into it. Exxy but yum.
Lunch - I didn't feel like a salad so I went with the theory of "add more vegetables" and had a sandwich with ham and a bucketload of spinach, half a cucumber and some beetroot on it. Doesn't have to be perfect - just add more vegetables and I feel like that is easy enough to stick to.
Afternoon tea - a bite of very over ripe banana, then I had some maple cashews, some sultanas and a little bit of homemade blueberry ice cream off the spoon when I made it.
Dinner - its vegetarian night in our house, so while the kids have pasta - we are having vegie burgers/rissoles with roasted vegies. I took an old recipe for vegie burgers I have and put in a 5 bean mix instead of chickpeas because I didn't have any. Hopefully they will taste ok, I omitted the flour and used a bit of almond meal to make it less moist.
After dinner - homemade ice cream - blueberry!
Coffees: 3
Water intake: probably around 1.5L
Exercise - about an 8km walk with my friend Jennilee
It is really funny when I look back at pics from weight before and at the moment that seems so far away to get to, but when I was there I still wasn't happy with my weight. I wanted to be smaller. 71kg was still very overweight to me when I was there, however its at least 20kg lighter than what I am now.
I say at least because I don't actually know what I weigh. I know its above 90kg. It could be above 95kg. Our scales are broken (and no I didn't break them when I stood on them!)
So here we go, another year, another chance of getting to where I want to be and fighting my internal demons when it comes to food.
At the moment we are tossing around the idea to eat grain free and sugar free. But then I read something the other day about how weight loss is more successful if you add things to your life, instead of taking things away. So adding in more vegetables. Add in more water (something I really need to do). Add in more exercise - but instead of jumping in and exercising 6 times a week, aim to exercise for more days than you don't exercise.
I am still going to try and stay away from processed foods, just simply for the fact that they really aren't good for you, and I should look out for my kids and not feed them crap either.
So today I have had:
Breakfast - bowl of Jalna yoghurt and some grain free granola on the top and some dried cherries (which were really tart and I won't be having them tomorrow lol)
Morning tea - boiled egg and some peanut butter in celery. I love peanut butter, especially from the health food store where they add nothing into it. Exxy but yum.
Lunch - I didn't feel like a salad so I went with the theory of "add more vegetables" and had a sandwich with ham and a bucketload of spinach, half a cucumber and some beetroot on it. Doesn't have to be perfect - just add more vegetables and I feel like that is easy enough to stick to.
Afternoon tea - a bite of very over ripe banana, then I had some maple cashews, some sultanas and a little bit of homemade blueberry ice cream off the spoon when I made it.
Dinner - its vegetarian night in our house, so while the kids have pasta - we are having vegie burgers/rissoles with roasted vegies. I took an old recipe for vegie burgers I have and put in a 5 bean mix instead of chickpeas because I didn't have any. Hopefully they will taste ok, I omitted the flour and used a bit of almond meal to make it less moist.
After dinner - homemade ice cream - blueberry!
Coffees: 3
Water intake: probably around 1.5L
Exercise - about an 8km walk with my friend Jennilee
Wednesday 23 January 2013
Weigh in day
I have now been watching what I eat and trying to lose weight for 9 months.
Today's weigh in put me in at 71.6 - still losing, but quite slowly of course.
My exercise has been basically non-existent and I've been so tired and unmotivated!
Plus, food is an ongoing battle. I think if I wasn't doing my paleo challenge, I would have broken some good eating habits already. I think there comes a time in your weight loss journey that you just accept the fact that you can never go back to junk food unless you want to become fat again. I'm a food addict, especially junk food.
Doesn't stop me craving it, but there is a difference between a physical craving and a mental craving. Once all the junk is out of my system by not eating it for a while, its no longer a physical craving, just a mental one.
A physical and mental one is much harder to beat than just a mental one. Which is why my weight yo-yo's all the time. I have junk, I want more junk. I have no junk, I don't want junk.
I was watching The Biggest Loser the other night and the nutritionist on there was saying that junk food is fine - if you don't keep it in the house. Its fine for special occasions and when you are out - but in your house - keep NOTHING. Which makes sense to me, and I hope to adapt that when I'm off my paleo diet, if I decide to giving myself treats.
As it stands now though - I'm not treating myself, because I just want more. And I don't want to be over 100kg again, eventually I'd like to get down to 65kg, no matter how long it takes me.
Current weight: 71.6kg
Total weight lost: 31.4kg
Weight needed to get to goal: 6.6kg
Today's weigh in put me in at 71.6 - still losing, but quite slowly of course.
My exercise has been basically non-existent and I've been so tired and unmotivated!
Plus, food is an ongoing battle. I think if I wasn't doing my paleo challenge, I would have broken some good eating habits already. I think there comes a time in your weight loss journey that you just accept the fact that you can never go back to junk food unless you want to become fat again. I'm a food addict, especially junk food.
Doesn't stop me craving it, but there is a difference between a physical craving and a mental craving. Once all the junk is out of my system by not eating it for a while, its no longer a physical craving, just a mental one.
A physical and mental one is much harder to beat than just a mental one. Which is why my weight yo-yo's all the time. I have junk, I want more junk. I have no junk, I don't want junk.
I was watching The Biggest Loser the other night and the nutritionist on there was saying that junk food is fine - if you don't keep it in the house. Its fine for special occasions and when you are out - but in your house - keep NOTHING. Which makes sense to me, and I hope to adapt that when I'm off my paleo diet, if I decide to giving myself treats.
As it stands now though - I'm not treating myself, because I just want more. And I don't want to be over 100kg again, eventually I'd like to get down to 65kg, no matter how long it takes me.
Current weight: 71.6kg
Total weight lost: 31.4kg
Weight needed to get to goal: 6.6kg
Tuesday 8 January 2013
Weighing in after a break!
Its been a while since I weighed in I think - and I've been on Paleo for one week.
I started at 76.7kg a week ago on January 1st and weighed 72.7kg this morning. Amazing really, that I could lose that much in a week!
I'll hold off weighing myself until the 23rd now - because that is my usual weigh in day, I just thought that was pretty impressive. Maybe I will get down to 65kg some time!
I started at 76.7kg a week ago on January 1st and weighed 72.7kg this morning. Amazing really, that I could lose that much in a week!
I'll hold off weighing myself until the 23rd now - because that is my usual weigh in day, I just thought that was pretty impressive. Maybe I will get down to 65kg some time!
Tuesday 1 January 2013
New year, new determination
Ok so I weighed in this morning at 76.7kg. So unfortunately I have gained some weight.
So I've taken new pics (not to be disclosed until I've lost some weight cos they aren't very flattering) and I started my challenge (new blog HERE) and I got back into the exercise today with some weights.
So this is my plan of attack to finally get down to 65kg by Easter time (which is like 13 weeks away, ridiculous challenge for me).
Monday, Wednesday and Friday - jump on the treadmill and do a session from my ifit card - Jillian Michaels program.
Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, Sunday - weights and a jog afterwards. I did 5 minute jogging at speed 8 today, and I will slowly increase the time by 30 seconds each week. I've had a long break, and I don't want my hip to play up on me so I'm taking it pretty easy.
Sunday - swim at the pool. As many laps as I can do in 30 minutes. Last Sunday was 14.
Also on Saturday - cross trainer session - 30 minutes.
So with all that exercise and good eating, I should get pretty close to my goal by easter time.
So I've taken new pics (not to be disclosed until I've lost some weight cos they aren't very flattering) and I started my challenge (new blog HERE) and I got back into the exercise today with some weights.
So this is my plan of attack to finally get down to 65kg by Easter time (which is like 13 weeks away, ridiculous challenge for me).
Monday, Wednesday and Friday - jump on the treadmill and do a session from my ifit card - Jillian Michaels program.
Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, Sunday - weights and a jog afterwards. I did 5 minute jogging at speed 8 today, and I will slowly increase the time by 30 seconds each week. I've had a long break, and I don't want my hip to play up on me so I'm taking it pretty easy.
Sunday - swim at the pool. As many laps as I can do in 30 minutes. Last Sunday was 14.
Also on Saturday - cross trainer session - 30 minutes.
So with all that exercise and good eating, I should get pretty close to my goal by easter time.
Saturday 29 December 2012
112 days of Paleo
So I've been VERY relaxed with my eating over the xmas period (and a bit before that to be completely honest) so I've decided that I am setting myself a new challenge and I am going to complete it. I know I've said that a lot, and I know my lovely husband doesn't really have any faith in me, but I am going to complete it.
I've already started preparing for Paleo life, got my choc mint balls to snack on if I feel like something sweet, made almond milk this morning with my new nut milk bag I got for xmas, and I'm testing a new breakfast cereal tomorrow to see if I like it to add to my other options for breakfast (can't eat eggs all the time!)
I've got a referral to get my bloods taken as well, so I was planning on doing that and then going back at the end of 112 days and getting them retested.
Why 112 days? Well, it takes me to the 23rd April - when I started this whole weight loss "journey". So it seemed fitting that I take it to my anniversary of weight loss, and hopefully will be 65kg then. Eventually I want to get down to 60kg, I think thats pretty realistic.
So that starts on 1st January. Now I have to go finish off my homemade pizza, garlic bread and beer. Cos you know, I'm going without for 112 days....
I've already started preparing for Paleo life, got my choc mint balls to snack on if I feel like something sweet, made almond milk this morning with my new nut milk bag I got for xmas, and I'm testing a new breakfast cereal tomorrow to see if I like it to add to my other options for breakfast (can't eat eggs all the time!)
I've got a referral to get my bloods taken as well, so I was planning on doing that and then going back at the end of 112 days and getting them retested.
Why 112 days? Well, it takes me to the 23rd April - when I started this whole weight loss "journey". So it seemed fitting that I take it to my anniversary of weight loss, and hopefully will be 65kg then. Eventually I want to get down to 60kg, I think thats pretty realistic.
So that starts on 1st January. Now I have to go finish off my homemade pizza, garlic bread and beer. Cos you know, I'm going without for 112 days....
Friday 14 December 2012
Day 5
First day of school holidays!
Had oats for breakfast as normal, with blueberries and raspberries. So nice!
Morning tea: I was so very tempted to have one of the kids fruit bars, but knowing me and my habit of not being able to stop at just one - I had one of their rice crackers, and then had two plain ryvitas instead. My body will thank me for this, I'm sure.
Lunch: Two scrambled eggs on a thick piece of wholemeal bread (toasted). Nothing added except for salt. No oil in the pan, no milk in the eggs, no butter on the bread.
Afternoon tea: A few dry ryvitas and some raw brownie. Found the recipe online HERE and of course I had to test it! Yummo, although I think it has a touch too much salt, just in case anyone reads this and wants to make it - halve the salt. And this is coming from someone who adores salt.
Dinner: Spaghetti bog tonight but with zoodles instead of spaghetti or pasta.
After dinner: We made ice cream based on THIS recipe, except I didn't want to put nuts in it, so I just used frozen banana and then thought I would use dates instead of nuts, and that kills two birds with one stone, then I don't need the sweetener if I use dates! My dates are kept in the fridge so now I have banana chocolate ice cream with pieces of super chewy fudgy dates throughout it. Definitely a treat! And super healthy and YUM!
Oh and I also had a few low fat biscuits with my tea ;) And I could have had another brownie. Whoops.
Had oats for breakfast as normal, with blueberries and raspberries. So nice!
Morning tea: I was so very tempted to have one of the kids fruit bars, but knowing me and my habit of not being able to stop at just one - I had one of their rice crackers, and then had two plain ryvitas instead. My body will thank me for this, I'm sure.
Lunch: Two scrambled eggs on a thick piece of wholemeal bread (toasted). Nothing added except for salt. No oil in the pan, no milk in the eggs, no butter on the bread.
Afternoon tea: A few dry ryvitas and some raw brownie. Found the recipe online HERE and of course I had to test it! Yummo, although I think it has a touch too much salt, just in case anyone reads this and wants to make it - halve the salt. And this is coming from someone who adores salt.
Dinner: Spaghetti bog tonight but with zoodles instead of spaghetti or pasta.
After dinner: We made ice cream based on THIS recipe, except I didn't want to put nuts in it, so I just used frozen banana and then thought I would use dates instead of nuts, and that kills two birds with one stone, then I don't need the sweetener if I use dates! My dates are kept in the fridge so now I have banana chocolate ice cream with pieces of super chewy fudgy dates throughout it. Definitely a treat! And super healthy and YUM!
Oh and I also had a few low fat biscuits with my tea ;) And I could have had another brownie. Whoops.
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