Yes I'm back. Again. Still on this stupid ride of lose weight, put it back on, lose it again. The neverending cycle of feeling like crap so I restrict myself, and then I binge and eat everything in the house. On the one day. Or I go shopping and buy lots of crap food. And then tell myself that I'm a shit person and I need to eat it to get rid of it so I can start afresh. So I eat all the junk food. In the one day.....you get the picture.
So now I'm nearly back to where I started from - when I first started this blog. Losing weight is hard enough, but keeping it off is even harder. Having a baby and then losing weight is hard. Having 5 kids and no real time management skills is hard. Having lots of children, a messy house, anxiety and depression is hard - not very conducive for weight loss anyway.
So I'm back again, but I'm not making any huge plans, I am going to take it day by day and see how I go - and I'm not fully restricting myself, I'm allowing myself things that I like. You know, like coffee. An ice cream after dinner. I think if I eat well for the majority of the day, a few little things won't hurt too much and might help keep me motivated to keep going like this, instead of restricting everything and then eating everything (and then some).
So today I had a smoothie for breakfast that kind of tasted like grass. And looked like the green sludgy stuff you find on the top of creeks. But it wasn't too bad, think I just put wayyyy too much spinach in.
Then I went for a 5km walk with the baby in the pram, which wasn't too bad - aside from some knee pain I think I did quite ok.
Got home, changed the beds around in two bedrooms and then had morning tea - boiled egg and some celery with cream cheese, and celery with peanut butter. Then lunch was chicken soup with some bok choy chucked on the bottom of the bowl to wilt before eating. That was pretty tasty.
Afternoon tea was some carrot sticks and hommus that I found in my fridge (from my shopping trip for the Lose Baby Weight challenge. I have things in my fridge from the time I was going to do LCHF as well. And probably some things from other challenges or "diets").
Dinner was a fish stir fry I threw together, without any recipe. It was quite nice and full of vegies, which was my plan - not that I have a plan hahaha
So I think today went quite well. It's not finished yet, but I didn't have any cravings for any junk food and that's a bonus!!!
Let's see how tomorrow goes.
Monday, 17 August 2015
Friday, 2 January 2015
New year - here we go again!!
So here it is - 2015. Still fat, still unfit, still unhappy.
It is really funny when I look back at pics from weight before and at the moment that seems so far away to get to, but when I was there I still wasn't happy with my weight. I wanted to be smaller. 71kg was still very overweight to me when I was there, however its at least 20kg lighter than what I am now.
I say at least because I don't actually know what I weigh. I know its above 90kg. It could be above 95kg. Our scales are broken (and no I didn't break them when I stood on them!)
So here we go, another year, another chance of getting to where I want to be and fighting my internal demons when it comes to food.
At the moment we are tossing around the idea to eat grain free and sugar free. But then I read something the other day about how weight loss is more successful if you add things to your life, instead of taking things away. So adding in more vegetables. Add in more water (something I really need to do). Add in more exercise - but instead of jumping in and exercising 6 times a week, aim to exercise for more days than you don't exercise.
I am still going to try and stay away from processed foods, just simply for the fact that they really aren't good for you, and I should look out for my kids and not feed them crap either.
So today I have had:
Breakfast - bowl of Jalna yoghurt and some grain free granola on the top and some dried cherries (which were really tart and I won't be having them tomorrow lol)
Morning tea - boiled egg and some peanut butter in celery. I love peanut butter, especially from the health food store where they add nothing into it. Exxy but yum.
Lunch - I didn't feel like a salad so I went with the theory of "add more vegetables" and had a sandwich with ham and a bucketload of spinach, half a cucumber and some beetroot on it. Doesn't have to be perfect - just add more vegetables and I feel like that is easy enough to stick to.
Afternoon tea - a bite of very over ripe banana, then I had some maple cashews, some sultanas and a little bit of homemade blueberry ice cream off the spoon when I made it.
Dinner - its vegetarian night in our house, so while the kids have pasta - we are having vegie burgers/rissoles with roasted vegies. I took an old recipe for vegie burgers I have and put in a 5 bean mix instead of chickpeas because I didn't have any. Hopefully they will taste ok, I omitted the flour and used a bit of almond meal to make it less moist.
After dinner - homemade ice cream - blueberry!
Coffees: 3
Water intake: probably around 1.5L
Exercise - about an 8km walk with my friend Jennilee
It is really funny when I look back at pics from weight before and at the moment that seems so far away to get to, but when I was there I still wasn't happy with my weight. I wanted to be smaller. 71kg was still very overweight to me when I was there, however its at least 20kg lighter than what I am now.
I say at least because I don't actually know what I weigh. I know its above 90kg. It could be above 95kg. Our scales are broken (and no I didn't break them when I stood on them!)
So here we go, another year, another chance of getting to where I want to be and fighting my internal demons when it comes to food.
At the moment we are tossing around the idea to eat grain free and sugar free. But then I read something the other day about how weight loss is more successful if you add things to your life, instead of taking things away. So adding in more vegetables. Add in more water (something I really need to do). Add in more exercise - but instead of jumping in and exercising 6 times a week, aim to exercise for more days than you don't exercise.
I am still going to try and stay away from processed foods, just simply for the fact that they really aren't good for you, and I should look out for my kids and not feed them crap either.
So today I have had:
Breakfast - bowl of Jalna yoghurt and some grain free granola on the top and some dried cherries (which were really tart and I won't be having them tomorrow lol)
Morning tea - boiled egg and some peanut butter in celery. I love peanut butter, especially from the health food store where they add nothing into it. Exxy but yum.
Lunch - I didn't feel like a salad so I went with the theory of "add more vegetables" and had a sandwich with ham and a bucketload of spinach, half a cucumber and some beetroot on it. Doesn't have to be perfect - just add more vegetables and I feel like that is easy enough to stick to.
Afternoon tea - a bite of very over ripe banana, then I had some maple cashews, some sultanas and a little bit of homemade blueberry ice cream off the spoon when I made it.
Dinner - its vegetarian night in our house, so while the kids have pasta - we are having vegie burgers/rissoles with roasted vegies. I took an old recipe for vegie burgers I have and put in a 5 bean mix instead of chickpeas because I didn't have any. Hopefully they will taste ok, I omitted the flour and used a bit of almond meal to make it less moist.
After dinner - homemade ice cream - blueberry!
Coffees: 3
Water intake: probably around 1.5L
Exercise - about an 8km walk with my friend Jennilee
Wednesday, 23 January 2013
Weigh in day
I have now been watching what I eat and trying to lose weight for 9 months.
Today's weigh in put me in at 71.6 - still losing, but quite slowly of course.
My exercise has been basically non-existent and I've been so tired and unmotivated!
Plus, food is an ongoing battle. I think if I wasn't doing my paleo challenge, I would have broken some good eating habits already. I think there comes a time in your weight loss journey that you just accept the fact that you can never go back to junk food unless you want to become fat again. I'm a food addict, especially junk food.
Doesn't stop me craving it, but there is a difference between a physical craving and a mental craving. Once all the junk is out of my system by not eating it for a while, its no longer a physical craving, just a mental one.
A physical and mental one is much harder to beat than just a mental one. Which is why my weight yo-yo's all the time. I have junk, I want more junk. I have no junk, I don't want junk.
I was watching The Biggest Loser the other night and the nutritionist on there was saying that junk food is fine - if you don't keep it in the house. Its fine for special occasions and when you are out - but in your house - keep NOTHING. Which makes sense to me, and I hope to adapt that when I'm off my paleo diet, if I decide to giving myself treats.
As it stands now though - I'm not treating myself, because I just want more. And I don't want to be over 100kg again, eventually I'd like to get down to 65kg, no matter how long it takes me.
Current weight: 71.6kg
Total weight lost: 31.4kg
Weight needed to get to goal: 6.6kg
Today's weigh in put me in at 71.6 - still losing, but quite slowly of course.
My exercise has been basically non-existent and I've been so tired and unmotivated!
Plus, food is an ongoing battle. I think if I wasn't doing my paleo challenge, I would have broken some good eating habits already. I think there comes a time in your weight loss journey that you just accept the fact that you can never go back to junk food unless you want to become fat again. I'm a food addict, especially junk food.
Doesn't stop me craving it, but there is a difference between a physical craving and a mental craving. Once all the junk is out of my system by not eating it for a while, its no longer a physical craving, just a mental one.
A physical and mental one is much harder to beat than just a mental one. Which is why my weight yo-yo's all the time. I have junk, I want more junk. I have no junk, I don't want junk.
I was watching The Biggest Loser the other night and the nutritionist on there was saying that junk food is fine - if you don't keep it in the house. Its fine for special occasions and when you are out - but in your house - keep NOTHING. Which makes sense to me, and I hope to adapt that when I'm off my paleo diet, if I decide to giving myself treats.
As it stands now though - I'm not treating myself, because I just want more. And I don't want to be over 100kg again, eventually I'd like to get down to 65kg, no matter how long it takes me.
Current weight: 71.6kg
Total weight lost: 31.4kg
Weight needed to get to goal: 6.6kg
Tuesday, 8 January 2013
Weighing in after a break!
Its been a while since I weighed in I think - and I've been on Paleo for one week.
I started at 76.7kg a week ago on January 1st and weighed 72.7kg this morning. Amazing really, that I could lose that much in a week!
I'll hold off weighing myself until the 23rd now - because that is my usual weigh in day, I just thought that was pretty impressive. Maybe I will get down to 65kg some time!
I started at 76.7kg a week ago on January 1st and weighed 72.7kg this morning. Amazing really, that I could lose that much in a week!
I'll hold off weighing myself until the 23rd now - because that is my usual weigh in day, I just thought that was pretty impressive. Maybe I will get down to 65kg some time!
Tuesday, 1 January 2013
New year, new determination
Ok so I weighed in this morning at 76.7kg. So unfortunately I have gained some weight.
So I've taken new pics (not to be disclosed until I've lost some weight cos they aren't very flattering) and I started my challenge (new blog HERE) and I got back into the exercise today with some weights.
So this is my plan of attack to finally get down to 65kg by Easter time (which is like 13 weeks away, ridiculous challenge for me).
Monday, Wednesday and Friday - jump on the treadmill and do a session from my ifit card - Jillian Michaels program.
Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, Sunday - weights and a jog afterwards. I did 5 minute jogging at speed 8 today, and I will slowly increase the time by 30 seconds each week. I've had a long break, and I don't want my hip to play up on me so I'm taking it pretty easy.
Sunday - swim at the pool. As many laps as I can do in 30 minutes. Last Sunday was 14.
Also on Saturday - cross trainer session - 30 minutes.
So with all that exercise and good eating, I should get pretty close to my goal by easter time.
So I've taken new pics (not to be disclosed until I've lost some weight cos they aren't very flattering) and I started my challenge (new blog HERE) and I got back into the exercise today with some weights.
So this is my plan of attack to finally get down to 65kg by Easter time (which is like 13 weeks away, ridiculous challenge for me).
Monday, Wednesday and Friday - jump on the treadmill and do a session from my ifit card - Jillian Michaels program.
Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, Sunday - weights and a jog afterwards. I did 5 minute jogging at speed 8 today, and I will slowly increase the time by 30 seconds each week. I've had a long break, and I don't want my hip to play up on me so I'm taking it pretty easy.
Sunday - swim at the pool. As many laps as I can do in 30 minutes. Last Sunday was 14.
Also on Saturday - cross trainer session - 30 minutes.
So with all that exercise and good eating, I should get pretty close to my goal by easter time.
Saturday, 29 December 2012
112 days of Paleo
So I've been VERY relaxed with my eating over the xmas period (and a bit before that to be completely honest) so I've decided that I am setting myself a new challenge and I am going to complete it. I know I've said that a lot, and I know my lovely husband doesn't really have any faith in me, but I am going to complete it.
I've already started preparing for Paleo life, got my choc mint balls to snack on if I feel like something sweet, made almond milk this morning with my new nut milk bag I got for xmas, and I'm testing a new breakfast cereal tomorrow to see if I like it to add to my other options for breakfast (can't eat eggs all the time!)
I've got a referral to get my bloods taken as well, so I was planning on doing that and then going back at the end of 112 days and getting them retested.
Why 112 days? Well, it takes me to the 23rd April - when I started this whole weight loss "journey". So it seemed fitting that I take it to my anniversary of weight loss, and hopefully will be 65kg then. Eventually I want to get down to 60kg, I think thats pretty realistic.
So that starts on 1st January. Now I have to go finish off my homemade pizza, garlic bread and beer. Cos you know, I'm going without for 112 days....
I've already started preparing for Paleo life, got my choc mint balls to snack on if I feel like something sweet, made almond milk this morning with my new nut milk bag I got for xmas, and I'm testing a new breakfast cereal tomorrow to see if I like it to add to my other options for breakfast (can't eat eggs all the time!)
I've got a referral to get my bloods taken as well, so I was planning on doing that and then going back at the end of 112 days and getting them retested.
Why 112 days? Well, it takes me to the 23rd April - when I started this whole weight loss "journey". So it seemed fitting that I take it to my anniversary of weight loss, and hopefully will be 65kg then. Eventually I want to get down to 60kg, I think thats pretty realistic.
So that starts on 1st January. Now I have to go finish off my homemade pizza, garlic bread and beer. Cos you know, I'm going without for 112 days....
Friday, 14 December 2012
Day 5
First day of school holidays!
Had oats for breakfast as normal, with blueberries and raspberries. So nice!
Morning tea: I was so very tempted to have one of the kids fruit bars, but knowing me and my habit of not being able to stop at just one - I had one of their rice crackers, and then had two plain ryvitas instead. My body will thank me for this, I'm sure.
Lunch: Two scrambled eggs on a thick piece of wholemeal bread (toasted). Nothing added except for salt. No oil in the pan, no milk in the eggs, no butter on the bread.
Afternoon tea: A few dry ryvitas and some raw brownie. Found the recipe online HERE and of course I had to test it! Yummo, although I think it has a touch too much salt, just in case anyone reads this and wants to make it - halve the salt. And this is coming from someone who adores salt.
Dinner: Spaghetti bog tonight but with zoodles instead of spaghetti or pasta.
After dinner: We made ice cream based on THIS recipe, except I didn't want to put nuts in it, so I just used frozen banana and then thought I would use dates instead of nuts, and that kills two birds with one stone, then I don't need the sweetener if I use dates! My dates are kept in the fridge so now I have banana chocolate ice cream with pieces of super chewy fudgy dates throughout it. Definitely a treat! And super healthy and YUM!
Oh and I also had a few low fat biscuits with my tea ;) And I could have had another brownie. Whoops.
Had oats for breakfast as normal, with blueberries and raspberries. So nice!
Morning tea: I was so very tempted to have one of the kids fruit bars, but knowing me and my habit of not being able to stop at just one - I had one of their rice crackers, and then had two plain ryvitas instead. My body will thank me for this, I'm sure.
Lunch: Two scrambled eggs on a thick piece of wholemeal bread (toasted). Nothing added except for salt. No oil in the pan, no milk in the eggs, no butter on the bread.
Afternoon tea: A few dry ryvitas and some raw brownie. Found the recipe online HERE and of course I had to test it! Yummo, although I think it has a touch too much salt, just in case anyone reads this and wants to make it - halve the salt. And this is coming from someone who adores salt.
Dinner: Spaghetti bog tonight but with zoodles instead of spaghetti or pasta.
After dinner: We made ice cream based on THIS recipe, except I didn't want to put nuts in it, so I just used frozen banana and then thought I would use dates instead of nuts, and that kills two birds with one stone, then I don't need the sweetener if I use dates! My dates are kept in the fridge so now I have banana chocolate ice cream with pieces of super chewy fudgy dates throughout it. Definitely a treat! And super healthy and YUM!
Oh and I also had a few low fat biscuits with my tea ;) And I could have had another brownie. Whoops.
Thursday, 13 December 2012
Day four
Day 4, Sparrow's last day of term so it probably won't be great eating since I have to go to his xmas party.
Breakfast: I had some grain free cereal left over from my paleo days so I had that and some low fat yoghurt. Then I looked at the ingredients of the yoghurt after eating it and realised it has some pretty nasty shit in it, so now I'll be looking for a better yoghurt to eat.
Morning tea: Had a small handful of grapes, a few slices of watermelon and ryvitas with hommus.
Lunch: Went to Sparrow's school but DIDN'T have anything that was on offer, no matter how nice the cupcakes/cakes/sausage rolls looked - I didn't eat a thing. So I came home after the school concert and made myself some wholemeal toast with tuna (and a bit of mayo) and spinach between them.
Afternoon tea: Apple. And some grapes while putting kids to bed and preparing dinner.
Dinner: Pork steak things and lots of vegies (sweet potato, pumpkin, carrots, beans and broccoli)
After dinner: Fruit & Yoghurt ice cream and some sweet biscuits with my nightly tea.
Coffee intake: 3
Tea intake: 2
Water intake: Just over 1L I think!
Still no exercise. Grr.
Breakfast: I had some grain free cereal left over from my paleo days so I had that and some low fat yoghurt. Then I looked at the ingredients of the yoghurt after eating it and realised it has some pretty nasty shit in it, so now I'll be looking for a better yoghurt to eat.
Morning tea: Had a small handful of grapes, a few slices of watermelon and ryvitas with hommus.
Lunch: Went to Sparrow's school but DIDN'T have anything that was on offer, no matter how nice the cupcakes/cakes/sausage rolls looked - I didn't eat a thing. So I came home after the school concert and made myself some wholemeal toast with tuna (and a bit of mayo) and spinach between them.
Afternoon tea: Apple. And some grapes while putting kids to bed and preparing dinner.
Dinner: Pork steak things and lots of vegies (sweet potato, pumpkin, carrots, beans and broccoli)
After dinner: Fruit & Yoghurt ice cream and some sweet biscuits with my nightly tea.
Coffee intake: 3
Tea intake: 2
Water intake: Just over 1L I think!
Still no exercise. Grr.
Wednesday, 12 December 2012
Day three
Bubbles was feeding like a newborn last night, so I'm pretty tired again today, but really thats nothing unusual! As tired as I am, thats still no excuse to feed my body bad food. (Even though I would really love some!)
Breakfast: Oats. Except I threw in some frozen raspberries with the frozen blueberries to soak with the oats and it was so YUM!! So I had raspberries instead of strawberries - still with coconut, linseeds and sunflower seeds (banana and honey as well).
Morning tea: Even though I was super proud of myself for getting through shopping (both Aldi and Woolworths) with the three girls, I didn't indulge in any of the marshmallows I got for them for being so good. Instead I had a handful of cherries (on spesh this week at woolies!) and then when I got home, had my hommus on ryvitas again.
Lunch: Sardines on toast. One of my most favourite lunches I think!
Afternoon tea: A cherry, banana and a nectarine (and more cherries before putting the kids to bed just cos they are so freaking yummy)
Tea: Pork San Choy Bau (or in other words, Savoury pork in lettuce cups) - one of my favourite meals, so freakin yum!!!
After dinner: Fruit and yoghurt ice cream, and a couple of low calorie biscuits with my tea.
Water intake: around a litre...ish...
Coffee intake: 3
Tea intake: 2
Bring on day 4! I CAN do this.
Breakfast: Oats. Except I threw in some frozen raspberries with the frozen blueberries to soak with the oats and it was so YUM!! So I had raspberries instead of strawberries - still with coconut, linseeds and sunflower seeds (banana and honey as well).
Morning tea: Even though I was super proud of myself for getting through shopping (both Aldi and Woolworths) with the three girls, I didn't indulge in any of the marshmallows I got for them for being so good. Instead I had a handful of cherries (on spesh this week at woolies!) and then when I got home, had my hommus on ryvitas again.
Lunch: Sardines on toast. One of my most favourite lunches I think!
Afternoon tea: A cherry, banana and a nectarine (and more cherries before putting the kids to bed just cos they are so freaking yummy)
Tea: Pork San Choy Bau (or in other words, Savoury pork in lettuce cups) - one of my favourite meals, so freakin yum!!!
After dinner: Fruit and yoghurt ice cream, and a couple of low calorie biscuits with my tea.
Water intake: around a litre...ish...
Coffee intake: 3
Tea intake: 2
Bring on day 4! I CAN do this.
Tuesday, 11 December 2012
Day two
Ok had a shit night last night, just couldn't sleep, plus a few feeds from Bubbles - so I'm pretty tired. Determined to do well today though.
Had oats again for breakfast. Same as yesterday, just because its pretty darn yummy and with all the seeds and stuff, its a great start to the day.
Morning tea - two ryvita crackers with a light spreading of hommus and a boiled egg on top. Pretty nice actually! Plus the protein from the egg will help keep me fuller for longer :)
Lunch - another salad (still no meat, and I forgot to get some chicken out to thaw) so I had lettuce, pumpkin, beans, small handful of cashews, small sprinkling of cheese and a small handful of grapes. Interesting combination, but I liked it! I like just coming up with "interesting" combinations, keeps things different lol
Afternoon tea - apple (pink lady - my favourite!)
Dinner - pizza - however ours was on a pita bread, with homemade pizza sauce made in the thermomix (couple of cloves of garlic, a red onion and some tomatoes blitzed), with green capsicum, radishes, an egg and a light sprinkling of cheese. Elf Man had the added bonus of pepitas and cranberries on his (freak that he is!!) It probably sounds gross but it was really quite nice.
After dinner - a cup of tea and some ryvitas (better than sweet biscuits right!?)
Water intake: Around 1L - not a lot, but better than nothing (which is normal for me...)
Tea intake: 2 (one when the kids were eating their pizza for dinner, and one before bed!)
Coffee intake: 3 (one for stumbling out of bed at 5am, one at morning tea, one after lunch)
No exercise today. I had all intentions of going out and going for a walk. However - I was out the door when I realised I had someone coming around to buy a bed and I had to clean down the bed, so I did that instead. Then found out after I done it that they weren't coming any more *insert lots of swear words here* By that time, Bubbles was overdue for her nap, so I put her down instead because it looked like it was going to rain anyway. There is always tomorrow.
Had oats again for breakfast. Same as yesterday, just because its pretty darn yummy and with all the seeds and stuff, its a great start to the day.
Morning tea - two ryvita crackers with a light spreading of hommus and a boiled egg on top. Pretty nice actually! Plus the protein from the egg will help keep me fuller for longer :)
Lunch - another salad (still no meat, and I forgot to get some chicken out to thaw) so I had lettuce, pumpkin, beans, small handful of cashews, small sprinkling of cheese and a small handful of grapes. Interesting combination, but I liked it! I like just coming up with "interesting" combinations, keeps things different lol
Afternoon tea - apple (pink lady - my favourite!)
Dinner - pizza - however ours was on a pita bread, with homemade pizza sauce made in the thermomix (couple of cloves of garlic, a red onion and some tomatoes blitzed), with green capsicum, radishes, an egg and a light sprinkling of cheese. Elf Man had the added bonus of pepitas and cranberries on his (freak that he is!!) It probably sounds gross but it was really quite nice.
After dinner - a cup of tea and some ryvitas (better than sweet biscuits right!?)
Water intake: Around 1L - not a lot, but better than nothing (which is normal for me...)
Tea intake: 2 (one when the kids were eating their pizza for dinner, and one before bed!)
Coffee intake: 3 (one for stumbling out of bed at 5am, one at morning tea, one after lunch)
No exercise today. I had all intentions of going out and going for a walk. However - I was out the door when I realised I had someone coming around to buy a bed and I had to clean down the bed, so I did that instead. Then found out after I done it that they weren't coming any more *insert lots of swear words here* By that time, Bubbles was overdue for her nap, so I put her down instead because it looked like it was going to rain anyway. There is always tomorrow.
Monday, 10 December 2012
Day one
So I decided to write my blog every day so as to keep myself on track. I won't bore all my friends and post the link on facebook for them to read, because, well, this is probably going to be bloody boring, and its just for a constant reminder to myself on how to eat well, and that I already KNOW what to do, I just have to STFU and do it.
So today for breakfast I had oats. Normal quick oats, 1/3 cup. Soaked them in some water for about 15 minutes, and then put some blueberries, strawberries, linseeds, shredded coconut, sunflower seeds, half a banana and half a teaspoon of honey on it. Then added some light milk when it was done in the microwave cos it was still a bit sticky. Delicious!
I had a visitor during the morning so I didn't have anything but a cup of coffee (and a slice of apple), until I made her some vegan chocolate mousse (Quirky Cooking recipe) and I had a bit of that as well. Yes, its high in calories, but so good for you!!
Then for lunch, I was tossing up what to have, could have a sandwich with tuna, however Elf Man needed all the tins for his week at prac, and we didn't have any other meat things, so I made a salad. Lettuce, and green capsicum were my starting point. Boiled some eggs up, threw one of that in as well. Then steamed some pumpkin and green beans - threw them in as well. And then I spotted the rest of the apple that was left over on the bench - chucked that in as well. Plus water - to drink, not to float my salad.
Then afternoon tea - some homemade hommus on rye biscuits. I only discovered rye biscuits through the Ashy Bines eating plan, and I was skeptical but they are actually really yummy!
Dinner - beef stirfry - with beans, radishes, carrot, red onion and capsicum. Threw in some lime juice and tamari to flavour. On a bed of cauliflower "rice".
And finished the day with a fruit and yoghurt ice cream (my favourite) and a cup of tea (obviously not consumed at the same time).
Day one over and completed successfully with NO crap food and no craving.
Day two - I'm ready for you!
So today for breakfast I had oats. Normal quick oats, 1/3 cup. Soaked them in some water for about 15 minutes, and then put some blueberries, strawberries, linseeds, shredded coconut, sunflower seeds, half a banana and half a teaspoon of honey on it. Then added some light milk when it was done in the microwave cos it was still a bit sticky. Delicious!
I had a visitor during the morning so I didn't have anything but a cup of coffee (and a slice of apple), until I made her some vegan chocolate mousse (Quirky Cooking recipe) and I had a bit of that as well. Yes, its high in calories, but so good for you!!
Then for lunch, I was tossing up what to have, could have a sandwich with tuna, however Elf Man needed all the tins for his week at prac, and we didn't have any other meat things, so I made a salad. Lettuce, and green capsicum were my starting point. Boiled some eggs up, threw one of that in as well. Then steamed some pumpkin and green beans - threw them in as well. And then I spotted the rest of the apple that was left over on the bench - chucked that in as well. Plus water - to drink, not to float my salad.
Then afternoon tea - some homemade hommus on rye biscuits. I only discovered rye biscuits through the Ashy Bines eating plan, and I was skeptical but they are actually really yummy!
Dinner - beef stirfry - with beans, radishes, carrot, red onion and capsicum. Threw in some lime juice and tamari to flavour. On a bed of cauliflower "rice".
And finished the day with a fruit and yoghurt ice cream (my favourite) and a cup of tea (obviously not consumed at the same time).
Day one over and completed successfully with NO crap food and no craving.
Day two - I'm ready for you!
Sunday, 9 December 2012
The ugly cycle of self loathing
So many things have been running through my head about what to write in this blog post tonight. Of course like I always have been, I am going to be completely honest and admit that I have been so completely off the wagon lately that I couldn't even see the wagon. Wasn't next to me, probably in the next country or something with the way that I have been acting.
First up - my excuses. Oh, I've heard myself come out with some great ones. I can't exercise because Elf Man is on prac. Well yes, its true that he leaves at 5.15am and he gets home when I get home from school pick up at 3.30pm. Yes its true that I don't really have time to exercise in the afternoon and evening because we go to bed earlier now. HOWEVER - I could get out there with the girls in the pram and go walking during the day, nothing stopping me except my excuses. Oh and then there is the excuse to eat crap food - I have my period. Weeeeee! That means I get to eat shit food right? Well no, no it doesn't. I didn't eat any crap for 5 months and I know that I had my period at least 5 times......
So I've been eating a LOT of crap. An awful lot. Yesterday I felt so sick in the guts, and I wouldn't (couldn't) even admit to Elf Man how much crap I managed to shove into my gob at my mum's house. Eating in secret is what I do best you see, I've perfected the art of people not knowing what you are grabbing to quickly eat, and excuses are easy to come by, oh I need a drink - better go inside... where are my sunnies?.. better go inside... (handful of food, handful of food...chew quickly...swallow but don't choke...)
Hopefully I'm not alone here, I'm sure I can't be the only person alive who eats more than they are supposed to, with all the wrong food choices. Here I sit now at around 75kg and back to eating like I was before - when I was 103kg. With no feelings attached to food, if its there I eat. I'm not really an emotional eater, I'm more like - see shit food, eat shit food, kind of eater. Go buy more shit food.
I hate the way I feel at the moment. I feel "fat". Because I've eaten fat, I feel FAT. I crave more fat because I've eaten fat. I feel gross and utterly disgusted in myself, so I eat more fat. The cycle continues. I've fooled around with different methods of losing weight (and of course have noted them all in previous blog entries, previous one to this one proves my point) and I think its because of fear of failure. If I give myself a reason to fail (diet too hard to stick to, takes too much time, too restrictive, too expensive) then its not MY fault surely, its the diet's fault - right?
I'm ending this shit, I really am. I'm sick of feeling like this. Sick of being on this constant fucking merry-go-round of "Weight Issues". Its not my weight thats the issue here, its the crap in my head. My low self esteem. My low self worth. My excuses.
Tonight we are saying good bye to the crap food, and tomorrow is going to be that brand new shining day. I'm not going to think about putting crap food into my body. I AM going to beat down this wall in my mind that says I can't be fit and healthy. It knows the past me, not the future me.
And if I never get to meet the "me" that I can be - I'll be stuck with the "me" that I don't like. Forever. And that's a long time.
First up - my excuses. Oh, I've heard myself come out with some great ones. I can't exercise because Elf Man is on prac. Well yes, its true that he leaves at 5.15am and he gets home when I get home from school pick up at 3.30pm. Yes its true that I don't really have time to exercise in the afternoon and evening because we go to bed earlier now. HOWEVER - I could get out there with the girls in the pram and go walking during the day, nothing stopping me except my excuses. Oh and then there is the excuse to eat crap food - I have my period. Weeeeee! That means I get to eat shit food right? Well no, no it doesn't. I didn't eat any crap for 5 months and I know that I had my period at least 5 times......
So I've been eating a LOT of crap. An awful lot. Yesterday I felt so sick in the guts, and I wouldn't (couldn't) even admit to Elf Man how much crap I managed to shove into my gob at my mum's house. Eating in secret is what I do best you see, I've perfected the art of people not knowing what you are grabbing to quickly eat, and excuses are easy to come by, oh I need a drink - better go inside... where are my sunnies?.. better go inside... (handful of food, handful of food...chew quickly...swallow but don't choke...)
Hopefully I'm not alone here, I'm sure I can't be the only person alive who eats more than they are supposed to, with all the wrong food choices. Here I sit now at around 75kg and back to eating like I was before - when I was 103kg. With no feelings attached to food, if its there I eat. I'm not really an emotional eater, I'm more like - see shit food, eat shit food, kind of eater. Go buy more shit food.
I hate the way I feel at the moment. I feel "fat". Because I've eaten fat, I feel FAT. I crave more fat because I've eaten fat. I feel gross and utterly disgusted in myself, so I eat more fat. The cycle continues. I've fooled around with different methods of losing weight (and of course have noted them all in previous blog entries, previous one to this one proves my point) and I think its because of fear of failure. If I give myself a reason to fail (diet too hard to stick to, takes too much time, too restrictive, too expensive) then its not MY fault surely, its the diet's fault - right?
I'm ending this shit, I really am. I'm sick of feeling like this. Sick of being on this constant fucking merry-go-round of "Weight Issues". Its not my weight thats the issue here, its the crap in my head. My low self esteem. My low self worth. My excuses.
Tonight we are saying good bye to the crap food, and tomorrow is going to be that brand new shining day. I'm not going to think about putting crap food into my body. I AM going to beat down this wall in my mind that says I can't be fit and healthy. It knows the past me, not the future me.
And if I never get to meet the "me" that I can be - I'll be stuck with the "me" that I don't like. Forever. And that's a long time.
Saturday, 1 December 2012
31 Days of Clean
Ok so I've slacked off again - this weight loss stuff is hard! Its so easy to fall back into old habits and excuses. I had slacked off then found my mojo again, and then when I was preparing for a surprise trip to Tassie I sort of gave myself the excuse to just eat crap. No need to start a new diet plan because I didn't expect my friends to feed me that way you know. Didn't want to put them out because it was a surprise that I was coming. So I had already gotten slack and then when I was down there I indulged in some pretty terrific (yet calorie high) food.
SO! Now that I'm back, I've set myself a new challenge - 31 days of Clean. This is my clean eating plan for the whole of December (including Christmas yes!).
Today I woke up and instead of coffee with milk I had a herbal tea. I then made homemade Almond milk because every packaged one I found at Coles yesterday had added sugar, even the organic one which uses Agave Syrup, which has been proven to not be something that is considered clean. So I thought "fuck it" and made my own with a couple of dates to sweeten.
Then I made myself a poached egg on rye toast for breakfast. I got the idea from Ashy Bines on the rye bread, however, it has been noted on another blog that wholemeal bread is "clean" as well, so I think I will make my own wholemeal bread instead of buying rye.
Unfortunately dairy doesn't really agree with me, so I will drop milk but will still have yoghurt a few times a week (homemade yoghurt - no sugar). And of course, no pasta and rice etc. Most of my main meals are meat and vegies - with LOTS of broccoli.
I have a plan with different options for every meal and snacks, and I will stick to that. It still needs a bit of refining, there are a few different opinions out there on what exactly clean eating is, for example, Ashy Bines says her plan is a clean eating plan, however she has protein powder and bars, and if you read the guidelines on some blogs about what clean eating is - they don't fit into it. She also doesn't recommend milk - other blogs say milk is fine as long as its full fat, and others say its fine as long as its low fat. Confusing much?
Therefore, I've made my own Melcra Clean Eating Plan - everyone else is just too confusing for me, so I've taken bits and pieces from everything I have read and mixed it with stuff that I like and I know is good for me.
I weighed in this morning at 75.8kg. Shocking how easy it is to pack the weight back on. Almost too easy. I'm not weighing myself until January 1st either, just as an added challenge to myself from frequent weigh ins!
31 days - let's go!
SO! Now that I'm back, I've set myself a new challenge - 31 days of Clean. This is my clean eating plan for the whole of December (including Christmas yes!).
Today I woke up and instead of coffee with milk I had a herbal tea. I then made homemade Almond milk because every packaged one I found at Coles yesterday had added sugar, even the organic one which uses Agave Syrup, which has been proven to not be something that is considered clean. So I thought "fuck it" and made my own with a couple of dates to sweeten.
Then I made myself a poached egg on rye toast for breakfast. I got the idea from Ashy Bines on the rye bread, however, it has been noted on another blog that wholemeal bread is "clean" as well, so I think I will make my own wholemeal bread instead of buying rye.
Unfortunately dairy doesn't really agree with me, so I will drop milk but will still have yoghurt a few times a week (homemade yoghurt - no sugar). And of course, no pasta and rice etc. Most of my main meals are meat and vegies - with LOTS of broccoli.
I have a plan with different options for every meal and snacks, and I will stick to that. It still needs a bit of refining, there are a few different opinions out there on what exactly clean eating is, for example, Ashy Bines says her plan is a clean eating plan, however she has protein powder and bars, and if you read the guidelines on some blogs about what clean eating is - they don't fit into it. She also doesn't recommend milk - other blogs say milk is fine as long as its full fat, and others say its fine as long as its low fat. Confusing much?
Therefore, I've made my own Melcra Clean Eating Plan - everyone else is just too confusing for me, so I've taken bits and pieces from everything I have read and mixed it with stuff that I like and I know is good for me.
I weighed in this morning at 75.8kg. Shocking how easy it is to pack the weight back on. Almost too easy. I'm not weighing myself until January 1st either, just as an added challenge to myself from frequent weigh ins!
31 days - let's go!
Saturday, 3 November 2012
I've found my mojo again!
Yes, its been a while since I blogged, mainly because I was totally in a funk and could not fight my way out of it. I weighed in a week ago and I had put on weight. First I was so totally impressed at my 6 month weigh in because I was 71.5kg and then I decided to go sabotage myself and eat crap food, and put on over 2kg in about 9 days.
So after talking to a wonderful, inspirational friend, we got chatting about how I can't seem to get my mindset back to what it was when I first started losing weight, and she agreed that I'm not going to find it again, because I'm not the same person. WELL! That totally made sense to me, and explains why I kept going around in circles and changing up my diet plan, and then changing it again and again, and I couldn't stick to anything - I felt like I was drowning and I couldn't save myself.
So now, in the last few days, I'm getting it back again - the mindset to get FIT (and not just to lose weight). When I started losing weight it was all about the weight loss, everything I did was dictated by how much weight I had lost, and how much I wanted to lose, and how much I had left to lose. I always said that I didn't want to look like this:
I wanted to look like this:
I want to be buff, and have people comment "wow, she looks fit" instead of those negative people that say "oh wow, she's sooo skinny" - you know the ones? People are always going to talk about people, and make comments, and I know I can't control that, but I would like them to be saying the "Fit" comments most of all.
SO! I've gained a few kilos, but gained some perspective and some mojo, which was so worth it. I wrote up another plan the other day, and I'm going to revise it tonight and take out the chocolate and treats and stuff I had in there. I don't need them, I've proven to myself that I don't need chocolate to live a good healthy life. So I'm dissing that and maybe adding some more berries or something haha.
Thats my plan. Plus I'm starting swimming as from tomorrow. Someone told me today that I should do triathlons with them, and I was like - wtf?! No way man, I CANNOT do that - my hip, my knee - argh, its just not doable.
Then I was like, dude, hang on. I've gotta stop making excuses and start doing shit. I want an athletes body, and I've trimmed a lot of fat off already, so maybe I should just give myself some bloody credit and TRY some of this stuff. So I'm not going to do it immediately of course (I don't want to give myself a heart attack) but I am going to start swimming first, and also try and get my back issues worked out (back will fix hip, and will fix knee) and then I'm going to start making myself into the person that I see myself wanting to be.
I will do this. Slowly but surely I will get there.
But of course I had to get maccas out of the way for dinner tonight and finish the chocolate in the fridge. Priorities right?
So after talking to a wonderful, inspirational friend, we got chatting about how I can't seem to get my mindset back to what it was when I first started losing weight, and she agreed that I'm not going to find it again, because I'm not the same person. WELL! That totally made sense to me, and explains why I kept going around in circles and changing up my diet plan, and then changing it again and again, and I couldn't stick to anything - I felt like I was drowning and I couldn't save myself.
So now, in the last few days, I'm getting it back again - the mindset to get FIT (and not just to lose weight). When I started losing weight it was all about the weight loss, everything I did was dictated by how much weight I had lost, and how much I wanted to lose, and how much I had left to lose. I always said that I didn't want to look like this:
I wanted to look like this:
I want to be buff, and have people comment "wow, she looks fit" instead of those negative people that say "oh wow, she's sooo skinny" - you know the ones? People are always going to talk about people, and make comments, and I know I can't control that, but I would like them to be saying the "Fit" comments most of all.
SO! I've gained a few kilos, but gained some perspective and some mojo, which was so worth it. I wrote up another plan the other day, and I'm going to revise it tonight and take out the chocolate and treats and stuff I had in there. I don't need them, I've proven to myself that I don't need chocolate to live a good healthy life. So I'm dissing that and maybe adding some more berries or something haha.
Thats my plan. Plus I'm starting swimming as from tomorrow. Someone told me today that I should do triathlons with them, and I was like - wtf?! No way man, I CANNOT do that - my hip, my knee - argh, its just not doable.
Then I was like, dude, hang on. I've gotta stop making excuses and start doing shit. I want an athletes body, and I've trimmed a lot of fat off already, so maybe I should just give myself some bloody credit and TRY some of this stuff. So I'm not going to do it immediately of course (I don't want to give myself a heart attack) but I am going to start swimming first, and also try and get my back issues worked out (back will fix hip, and will fix knee) and then I'm going to start making myself into the person that I see myself wanting to be.
I will do this. Slowly but surely I will get there.
But of course I had to get maccas out of the way for dinner tonight and finish the chocolate in the fridge. Priorities right?
Monday, 8 October 2012
A few updates!
So I have a few things to get out of my head today!
First up - we weighed ourselves yesterday. Unbeknownst to us, our scales had stopped working properly around 6ish weeks ago. When I plateaued at 78kg for 3 weigh ins - although I was discouraged at the time and could never see myself getting below that weight - and now we know it was the bloody scales not working properly cos a leg fell off and they were wobbly!
So my weight is now 73.1kg (going by the wii fit). Its funny, when I was 103kg I thought that anyone who was 75ish didn't really need to lose weight, they were so lucky to not be as heavy as me - but now that I'm here, I realise that I have a LOT of weight left to lose. (See picture for evidence!)
I still have a LOT of weight around my belly and on my thighs, realistically I could probably get down to 55kg (both my mum and sister are usually this weight) and not look too skinny. I'd build muscle of course, so I would be an athletic type of body - I can't wait till I get to that point!
So my weight is 73.1kg, I've gone down to 29.87% body fat and I lost 10cm in the last month. So according to BMI calculators my BMI is 26.9 which means I'm still classed as overweight. Definitely have to keep going!
Now the next thing - I'm so over my bloating issue. When I went paleo that took that issue away, but it gave me the runs all the time. So what was causing the runs? I thought it was the lack of fibre (as compared to a diet containing grains) but maybe it was from a excessive amount of fat OR protein (excessive in comparison to what I had normally been having). Google tells me it could be either. So, do I go paleo again, but not have as much fat? We weren't eating THAT much fat, only with our bacon, I never added extra fat to things, but we did have some homemade lara bars made with coconut oil, and they were quite slimy with oil.
So I thought that since my nose is also blocked again - I'll go off dairy for a month and see if that helps. So thats my newest plan - go off dairy for the month.
And yet another thing - I've started a "No Junk Food Challenge" - so its this:
So I had day 1 today, pretty easy considering we never ate those things in the first place. Although we have no ice cream for after dinner and thats something I normally have, as well as biscuits with my evening cuppa so that should be interesting tonight after dinner!
Current weight: 73.1 kg
Total weight loss to date: 29.9kg (sooo close to 30kg)
First up - we weighed ourselves yesterday. Unbeknownst to us, our scales had stopped working properly around 6ish weeks ago. When I plateaued at 78kg for 3 weigh ins - although I was discouraged at the time and could never see myself getting below that weight - and now we know it was the bloody scales not working properly cos a leg fell off and they were wobbly!
So my weight is now 73.1kg (going by the wii fit). Its funny, when I was 103kg I thought that anyone who was 75ish didn't really need to lose weight, they were so lucky to not be as heavy as me - but now that I'm here, I realise that I have a LOT of weight left to lose. (See picture for evidence!)
I still have a LOT of weight around my belly and on my thighs, realistically I could probably get down to 55kg (both my mum and sister are usually this weight) and not look too skinny. I'd build muscle of course, so I would be an athletic type of body - I can't wait till I get to that point!
So my weight is 73.1kg, I've gone down to 29.87% body fat and I lost 10cm in the last month. So according to BMI calculators my BMI is 26.9 which means I'm still classed as overweight. Definitely have to keep going!
Now the next thing - I'm so over my bloating issue. When I went paleo that took that issue away, but it gave me the runs all the time. So what was causing the runs? I thought it was the lack of fibre (as compared to a diet containing grains) but maybe it was from a excessive amount of fat OR protein (excessive in comparison to what I had normally been having). Google tells me it could be either. So, do I go paleo again, but not have as much fat? We weren't eating THAT much fat, only with our bacon, I never added extra fat to things, but we did have some homemade lara bars made with coconut oil, and they were quite slimy with oil.
So I thought that since my nose is also blocked again - I'll go off dairy for a month and see if that helps. So thats my newest plan - go off dairy for the month.
And yet another thing - I've started a "No Junk Food Challenge" - so its this:
So I had day 1 today, pretty easy considering we never ate those things in the first place. Although we have no ice cream for after dinner and thats something I normally have, as well as biscuits with my evening cuppa so that should be interesting tonight after dinner!
Current weight: 73.1 kg
Total weight loss to date: 29.9kg (sooo close to 30kg)
Saturday, 6 October 2012
Choc orange balls
Well since I'm too scared to eat chocolate now (not that we ate a lot of it anyway obviously since starting the Melcra lifestyle), I have to look at other ways to get that chocolate in my diet (because, you know, its obviously needed as part of a well balanced diet!)
So I was thinking about the lemon balls I usually make, based on this recipe (I roll into balls instead of cutting into bars on my friend Sammie's suggestion). Then I started thinking.. hmm.. what if I used orange instead of lemon. Both citrus so should work right?
So then I started thinking... well shit, if I had orange, what goes well with orange - CHOCOLATE!!!!
So then I looked at this other recipe that I normally make for little chocolate type balls, and thought, well hell, I'll create my own!
So this is what I did -
1 cup of almonds
1.5 cups of dates
30g cacao
1 tablespoon of vanilla extract
zest of an orange (I used a new one I got the other day, washed it, dried it, then cut off with a peeler)
2.5 tablespoons of orange juice
1 cup of shredded coconut
So I let the thermomix do its job - and this is the end result!!
Some I rolled plain, some I rolled in coconut - obviously! I'm definitely no cook, or make my own inventions kinda gal, hell I had to google how to pan fry our fish tonight! But these are pretty damn good! I think the best thing is - there is no sweeteners or anything added to it, so totally paleo if we ever want to return to that kind of eating style (which we sort of follow anyway except for the odd sandwich here and there!)
The plain ones are a bit sticky, but I think I can live with that.........
So I was thinking about the lemon balls I usually make, based on this recipe (I roll into balls instead of cutting into bars on my friend Sammie's suggestion). Then I started thinking.. hmm.. what if I used orange instead of lemon. Both citrus so should work right?
So then I started thinking... well shit, if I had orange, what goes well with orange - CHOCOLATE!!!!
So then I looked at this other recipe that I normally make for little chocolate type balls, and thought, well hell, I'll create my own!
So this is what I did -
1 cup of almonds
1.5 cups of dates
30g cacao
1 tablespoon of vanilla extract
zest of an orange (I used a new one I got the other day, washed it, dried it, then cut off with a peeler)
2.5 tablespoons of orange juice
1 cup of shredded coconut
So I let the thermomix do its job - and this is the end result!!
Some I rolled plain, some I rolled in coconut - obviously! I'm definitely no cook, or make my own inventions kinda gal, hell I had to google how to pan fry our fish tonight! But these are pretty damn good! I think the best thing is - there is no sweeteners or anything added to it, so totally paleo if we ever want to return to that kind of eating style (which we sort of follow anyway except for the odd sandwich here and there!)
The plain ones are a bit sticky, but I think I can live with that.........
Friday, 5 October 2012
Goodbye old Mel
Ok so we had a pretty full on day today, and I was sooo not looking forward to the fish we were supposed to have for dinner. So I was like, god I feel like Maccas!
Elf Man said no, but agreed he didn't feel like fish either for dinner. Plus, it was sorta still frozen so that backed up our excuse for not wanting it...
So I said something about toasted cheese sangas for dinner. Then in my mind I was like - yeahhhh lots of dripping cheese, and I'll have TWO sangas, since its like dinner and everything, has to be full meal.
But then I stopped myself. FFS Mel, have you learnt nothing!? You work hard to get that weight off, and then as easy as it is to put a pair of old shoes on - back you flop into your old habits.
So I told myself no. I'm not doing that to myself, I'm a different person now and I'm NOT going back there.
So I got my arse into the kitchen and whipped up some fried rice. Of course since we avoid rice, I made it with cauliflower instead of rice. So there was onion, carrots, sweet potato, pumpkin, red and green capsicum, some sauces, celery, some eggs, chinese cabbage, chinese 5 spice and a whole cauliflower (cut up, steamed and processed like rice).
So that was dinner. Not maccas, not toasted cheese - but something very healthy, and quite yummy!
And also - my mum gave me a big container of custard (from the shops) for the kids. So I gave the kids some of that after their dinner, with the intention of having the rest with Elf Man tonight for our dessert.
But I'm not going to. I'll have our low calorie ice cream for dessert like normal (or homemade sorbet, whatever!) instead of the vanilla custard over a banana that was originally planned.
I'm not going back to Old Mel - she's gone forever.
Bye bye 103kg Mel, bye bye.
Elf Man said no, but agreed he didn't feel like fish either for dinner. Plus, it was sorta still frozen so that backed up our excuse for not wanting it...
So I said something about toasted cheese sangas for dinner. Then in my mind I was like - yeahhhh lots of dripping cheese, and I'll have TWO sangas, since its like dinner and everything, has to be full meal.
But then I stopped myself. FFS Mel, have you learnt nothing!? You work hard to get that weight off, and then as easy as it is to put a pair of old shoes on - back you flop into your old habits.
So I told myself no. I'm not doing that to myself, I'm a different person now and I'm NOT going back there.
So I got my arse into the kitchen and whipped up some fried rice. Of course since we avoid rice, I made it with cauliflower instead of rice. So there was onion, carrots, sweet potato, pumpkin, red and green capsicum, some sauces, celery, some eggs, chinese cabbage, chinese 5 spice and a whole cauliflower (cut up, steamed and processed like rice).
So that was dinner. Not maccas, not toasted cheese - but something very healthy, and quite yummy!
And also - my mum gave me a big container of custard (from the shops) for the kids. So I gave the kids some of that after their dinner, with the intention of having the rest with Elf Man tonight for our dessert.
But I'm not going to. I'll have our low calorie ice cream for dessert like normal (or homemade sorbet, whatever!) instead of the vanilla custard over a banana that was originally planned.
I'm not going back to Old Mel - she's gone forever.
Bye bye 103kg Mel, bye bye.
Sunday, 30 September 2012
Brace yourself!
Ok, so I've had knee issues that has stopped me getting on the treadmill for a little bit - I've been resorting to the cross trainer more because of it.
So yesterday, I found Elf Man's knee brace and I put it on. I could never get it on my knee before because I was too fat, so it fits now that I've lost some weight. Still tight, but I still have feeling in my toes so I don't think its cutting off any crucial circulation.
We tried out a new workout yesterday, one that took us each an hour to complete. Three sets of exercises, and each set was:
* Run for 3 minutes on the treadmill at 8km
* Jump on the cross trainer for 3 minutes at 10 degree incline and 10 resistance (keeping rpm above 63)
* Jump on rower for 3 minutes on resistance 4
* Box for 3 minutes
* 30 jumping jacks
* 10 squats
* 10 pushups
* 10 crunches
* 10 trunk extensions
Each set took 20 minutes, so one hour all up. Elf Man burnt over 1300 calories with his (which was pretty similar to my workout) but since the heart rate monitor doesn't like me, I have no idea what I burnt. I was pretty happy with the effort though.
So earlier today I braced my knee again to go on the treadmill. Previously I had been running at 10km for my intervals, but I didn't want to push it, so I ran at 9km. I usually do half an hour of my intervals (running, then walking for a minute), but I got to 23 minutes and I wasn't out of breath like I normally am, and I wasn't counting down the seconds on each run, so I thought I would push myself a little bit more.
So I kept going, still doing minute intervals, until I reached 42 minutes, then I ran until I hit 44 minutes, then walked the last minute. I was pretty stoked with that effort, usually its really hard for me to complete 1 minute, let alone 2 minutes - at the end of the workout!!!!
I felt strong, and my knee was being awesome for me - thanks knee brace!
I've also been pleased with my nutrition efforts, I am really trying to get those 2 fruit serves and 5 vegies serves per day - and I've discovered that Elf Man has a really awesome breakfast so I've been making him make it for me too. Its pretty high in calories, but its so filling that I really don't need to eat until lunch. I have a cup of coffee at morning tea, but don't actually feel hungry. It contains: half a cup of oats, some linseeds, pepitas, sunflower seeds, dried cranberries, shredded coconut, cut up fresh fruit (today was blueberries, strawberry and banana), splash of low fat yoghurt, splash of low fat milk, drizzle of honey - and zapped in the microwave for a little bit. It is SO nice, think I'll get him to make it for me every day.
On another note, it was weigh in day today, and I lost a bit too - what a freakin' awesome day.
Current weight: 75.5kg
Total weight loss (so far!): 27.5kg
So yesterday, I found Elf Man's knee brace and I put it on. I could never get it on my knee before because I was too fat, so it fits now that I've lost some weight. Still tight, but I still have feeling in my toes so I don't think its cutting off any crucial circulation.
We tried out a new workout yesterday, one that took us each an hour to complete. Three sets of exercises, and each set was:
* Run for 3 minutes on the treadmill at 8km
* Jump on the cross trainer for 3 minutes at 10 degree incline and 10 resistance (keeping rpm above 63)
* Jump on rower for 3 minutes on resistance 4
* Box for 3 minutes
* 30 jumping jacks
* 10 squats
* 10 pushups
* 10 crunches
* 10 trunk extensions
Each set took 20 minutes, so one hour all up. Elf Man burnt over 1300 calories with his (which was pretty similar to my workout) but since the heart rate monitor doesn't like me, I have no idea what I burnt. I was pretty happy with the effort though.
So earlier today I braced my knee again to go on the treadmill. Previously I had been running at 10km for my intervals, but I didn't want to push it, so I ran at 9km. I usually do half an hour of my intervals (running, then walking for a minute), but I got to 23 minutes and I wasn't out of breath like I normally am, and I wasn't counting down the seconds on each run, so I thought I would push myself a little bit more.
So I kept going, still doing minute intervals, until I reached 42 minutes, then I ran until I hit 44 minutes, then walked the last minute. I was pretty stoked with that effort, usually its really hard for me to complete 1 minute, let alone 2 minutes - at the end of the workout!!!!
I felt strong, and my knee was being awesome for me - thanks knee brace!
I've also been pleased with my nutrition efforts, I am really trying to get those 2 fruit serves and 5 vegies serves per day - and I've discovered that Elf Man has a really awesome breakfast so I've been making him make it for me too. Its pretty high in calories, but its so filling that I really don't need to eat until lunch. I have a cup of coffee at morning tea, but don't actually feel hungry. It contains: half a cup of oats, some linseeds, pepitas, sunflower seeds, dried cranberries, shredded coconut, cut up fresh fruit (today was blueberries, strawberry and banana), splash of low fat yoghurt, splash of low fat milk, drizzle of honey - and zapped in the microwave for a little bit. It is SO nice, think I'll get him to make it for me every day.
On another note, it was weigh in day today, and I lost a bit too - what a freakin' awesome day.
Current weight: 75.5kg
Total weight loss (so far!): 27.5kg
Wednesday, 26 September 2012
Back on the horse I tells ya
Ok, so 10 years ago I was married to my first husband (yes, even fat girls can have a few men interested in them in their life time!) and I was going to Vic Uni and studying legal studies. I used to ride my husband's bike to uni, because we lived about 5 blocks away. One day I was riding and I swerved to miss a little kid who jumped out in front of me, and my handle bar got stuck in a fence and the bike flipped. As did I. And then the bike landed on me and ran over my face. I was traumatised by the experience! I limped all the way to uni (crying of course like the big sook I am) and had a hug from one of my friends (I think he was a bit weirded out cos I was normally pretty tough!).
So then I got cleaned up, went to classes as usual, took the bike home (walked - I wasn't getting on that again!). So when my husband got home, I told him about the accident and expected a bit of love and affection because I was still hurting from it, and all I got was...
"IS THE BIKE OK?!"
Fuck the bike buddy - how about your wife!!
Anyhooooo....... that was the last time I went on a bike. Until today. I felt like going for a walk (6 months ago I never had those feelings) and so we put the kids in various prams, Sparrow rode his bike, and Elf Man and I headed out for a small 3.2km walk.
Then after we got back - I took one of our bikes out for a ride. Just up and down the street, and it felt so free! To have the ground so close to me whilst moving quickly was a bit scary for me, and the friggin' magpie that was attacking me was a complete pain in the arse, but it felt good to be back on there.
I'm realising that this IS a lifestyle now, and calorie counting is great and it does get you where you need to be - however its not a lifestyle you can do forever, and I wouldn't want to. So I'm going to eat good food, move my arse at least 6 times a week in various exercises, and my new goal isn't to be 65kg - its to have my legs not wobble when I walk. Too much fat on my legs and arse and I wobble - so thats my goal! To have that stop wobbling.
Forget about the scale, forget about BMI, forget about body fat percentage - my goal is to not have wobbly legs when I walk.
Good wholesome food + exercise = my wobbly jelly legs gone forever!
Well, thats the plan anyway........
So then I got cleaned up, went to classes as usual, took the bike home (walked - I wasn't getting on that again!). So when my husband got home, I told him about the accident and expected a bit of love and affection because I was still hurting from it, and all I got was...
"IS THE BIKE OK?!"
Fuck the bike buddy - how about your wife!!
Anyhooooo....... that was the last time I went on a bike. Until today. I felt like going for a walk (6 months ago I never had those feelings) and so we put the kids in various prams, Sparrow rode his bike, and Elf Man and I headed out for a small 3.2km walk.
Then after we got back - I took one of our bikes out for a ride. Just up and down the street, and it felt so free! To have the ground so close to me whilst moving quickly was a bit scary for me, and the friggin' magpie that was attacking me was a complete pain in the arse, but it felt good to be back on there.
I'm realising that this IS a lifestyle now, and calorie counting is great and it does get you where you need to be - however its not a lifestyle you can do forever, and I wouldn't want to. So I'm going to eat good food, move my arse at least 6 times a week in various exercises, and my new goal isn't to be 65kg - its to have my legs not wobble when I walk. Too much fat on my legs and arse and I wobble - so thats my goal! To have that stop wobbling.
Forget about the scale, forget about BMI, forget about body fat percentage - my goal is to not have wobbly legs when I walk.
Good wholesome food + exercise = my wobbly jelly legs gone forever!
Well, thats the plan anyway........
Monday, 24 September 2012
5 month weigh in
Ok so I've been on the "Melcra" lifestyle for 5 months now - and this is the results from good diet and exercise.
On April 23rd I looked like this:
And this:
On April 23rd I looked like this:
And this:
Now I look like this:
Yes I still have lots of flabby bits (arms, tummy and thighs I'm looking at you!) but I am proud of what I have achieved in 5 months.
And even though today I ate bread that I wouldn't normally eat, and I had soft drink and I had an iced bun - I am not going back to those first pictures.
Current weight: 76.6kg.
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